I was a prostitute!

July 20, 2010

 

One year and a half ago, Christmas Day in fact, I was sitting in a hotel working as a hustler,(working-girl) whatever you want to call it, really there is no way to sugar-coat the word prostitute. We on the streets like to call it hustling.  Anyways I was smoking crack and shooting up morphine, five or six days had gone by and I just wasn’t getting high anymore.  So I became angry, mad! "I just couldn’t get the high I wanted!" So I got a hold of some really high grade cocaine and decided to shoot that up too.  Now, I’ve been using hard core drugs off and on since the age of 12 and now I am 41years old.  I’ve OD’ed a couple of times, I have even done the chicken on the ground, but nothing had prepared me for what was going to happen next…

 

I obviously had way too much, because I began to panic frantically and as I was in my altered state of consciousness, I was falling, my heart was pounding and I knew I was going to die. I kept hearing this loud drone, this horrible eternal echo. I was totally surrounded by the presence of evil spirits while sitting in what looked like an empty prison cell.  This place of eternal darkness that seemed to go on forever I could see demonic spirits and hear hideous laughter, I just knew that I was truly dying and time was up for me!  I had heard about God before and I had heard that God loves us and how He has a different plan for our lives.  I had also heard the name Jesus Christ, and I heard that there is power in the name Jesus Christ!

 

So just before I was about to find out what was on the other side, my very last breath around corner from death, I started screaming and screming like never before…I was begging the Lord God to forgive me. "Jesus Christ, Son of the living God, Please save me"!

 

And He did!!

 

That Christmas Day 2008, my children would have had a dead mother.  You know I struggled for a month after that, I guess I didn’t want to believe what had happened was true.  I wanted to pretend that it wasn’t real, but I only put myself through the same terrifying experience. Thank-you Jesus!

 

I’ve been clean off of crack-cocaine since February 2009.  I got on the methadone program for my addiction to opiates but I am slowly weening off of that now too.  No, it hasn’t been easy but God has truly blessed my life.  I just finished my first year of College with straight A’s and I am going on to the next. I want to be an Addictions Counsellor. "I never thought it could be possible to be free from such devasting addictions."  "I never thought I would get straight A’s in anything in my life." Or repair my relationship with my children but praise the Lord God! "All things are possible through Christ who strengthens me!" Thank you Lord Jesus Christ!

 

All you have to do is ask God to forgive you.  Ask God to give you the will and the desire to change because I really didn’t want to change, I really didn’t know how to change? Say something like this, "Jesus if you are real then show me how to live." "Jesus if you are real then come in my heart and change my life!" And if you are sincere, He promises to take you as you are and help you change.  You have to keep praying everyday, even when you don’t want too, especially when you don’t want too! It is so easy to fall away if you don’t read His Word.  Find a Bible believing Church, that recognizes the trinity, in the name of the Father, Son, Holy Spirit. 

 

God is always listening, as long as you are still breathing there is hope!